There are many people in the world who have suffered far worse than anything I have ever experienced and they have been given tougher trials and overcome more obstacles by far. I admire them and realize they are far more superior specimens of the human race than I.
I am ready to crawl in my bed, get under the covers and never come out again. All of this because I find I am very unhappy with the life I am currently leading.
My relationship is slowly disintegrating and yet I am the only one who will admit to it. Nothing drags on me more than denial and the inability to reason with someone.
I have two daughters who should be planning for their futures but have been hit by the current state of unemployment and are stuck attending college locally which is so abhorrent to them that they are completely uninspired in their current endeavors.
Which means that I have two moody teenage girls in my house who have no clear plans on when they will be leaving the nest. Don't get me wrong, I love them dearly and will sorely miss them when they go but at the same time, I would like some time alone to figure out my next step in life as well.
I am feeling trapped, depressed, unappreciated and unloved. Not necessarily in that order.
I know I will eventually find resolution but I am hoping it won't be a passive resolution, which is what I usually allow to happen. I would like to be active in the outcome this time...so, wish me luck!