I'm a little freaked out about it. I mean, I already knew that I was completely dependent on technology at work and would probably be struck mute if I had to answer a question when the server wasn't working.
But that's different. That's not my fault. I can't help it if the business world has gone paperless. All I can do is adapt like the good worker bee that I am.
I think my problem started with texting. I rarely speak to my kids in person anymore. Even when they're home, I text them. It's just so much easier. I get quick, abbreviated, generic replies. There's no discernible tone or attitude to tiptoe or stomp on my parental nerve endings, thus keeping my blood pressure and my temper at more manageable levels. Plus, I can still text in my "mommy" tone which basically just requires me to use short clipped sentences in all CAPS.
Phone calls and get togethers were still the norm for socializing with my friends though. But then came this Blog and Facebook. It happened gradually due to my disdain of the electronic egotism of those around me. I was positive I would always prefer direct communication over the emotionally stilted contact provided via this two dimensional vehicle of social destruction.
I was wrong.
I love it...love it...LOVE it!
I can control whom I speak with and when I speak to them. I can be witty, humorous and intelligent, thanks to editing and time delay. I mean, how many times have you played back a conversation (argument) with someone and come up with something wonderful (scathing) that you wished you had thought of at the time. Well, guess what? Through the beautiful medium provided via the information highway, you can.
I love both sets of friends but I definitely communicate more frequently with my E-friends. It's so much easier and less demanding that way. Since I could be the Queen of Lazytown (as long as the title didn't require me to do anything), in my world the terms easy and less demanding translate to better. And let us not forget the addictive nature that accompanies a simple two syllable word: Comment(s). (it should come with a warning)
When I realize I have a Comment, I can feel my heart rate increase and I try to take my time in order to savor the anticipation but like any other crackhead, I need my fix and I need it NOW. Just back off people and let me enjoy the buzzing in my head for a minute...or two. Ahhhhh, nothing better than a nice braingasm to get through the day. (well, there is SOMETHING better but this isn't that kind of post)
My E-friends bring me happiness as easily as my IRL friends. The difference being that they bring it to me in small controlled doses and apparently my psyche craves that kind of slow torture...but let's not delve any further into that area.
The point is that I prefer this form of virtual socializing to the extent that my own family is now seeking acknowledgement from me through my blog. They provide me with photos (I really like using photos or funny cartoons to accentuate my posts, in case you couldn't tell) and funny stories in hopes that I might use it in some way.
I have no idea if they are just trying to feed their own egos or if I have left them with no other means to bond with their new Cyber mom/wife.
Either way, I have learned my lesson and I will have a talk with my family tonight...you know, just to reconnect. I won't have to explain my motives because I've already posted them in this blog.
My hubby, who is a complete Cyber hubby, is a lot more understanding about the whole thing. He has been an addict longer than I and has therefore built up a resistance. I am satisfied with one Comment but that's not enough for him anymore. The Comments have to keep coming and he has gone to some major lengths to get them, even using cute pictures of his own nephew just to get an "awwwww" Comment. I'm getting to that stage myself. I can feel it.
My attachment to real people has thinned. It's kind of like that weird privacy zone that silently forms when you get in an elevator with strangers. But that may only be my issue. My hubby is friendly and social whether in two dimensions or three. That's one of the things I've always enjoyed about him. He loves to talk to elevator people, maybe it's the muzak that inspires him.
Either way, we are quite the homebodies and rarely go anywhere. So tonight, I'm going to suggest we take a walk or if this wind keeps up, at least open the drapes and enjoy the view.
"Wow...look at THAT honey! Honey?"
"Hang on...I'm getting my camera." *click*
"Where are you going?"
"I've got to post that picture right now."
"I can't believe you. Haven't you been paying attention to what I've been trying to tell you?"
"It was my idea to look out the window. I should get to post that picture..."
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
(for those of you who don't know, E-friends are how I refer to the people I talk to on-line and IRL friends are my friends In Real Life. there are some people who fit both categories and I think I love them most of all)